My life after chemo

what a friday........

Could it be any worse? I was having depressing days all week practically. I just don't know why. Mood swings possibly. I just haven't felt any motivation lately. I don't know where that engery I had a few months ago went. On top of everything, my financial situation isn't that great either. Medi-cal is taking FOREVER- I have a feeling I'm not even going to get the medical insurance through Medi-Cal. I'm paying COBRA with the money I don't have. I'm writing checks without money in the bank. My bills are over due, my cell phone is shut off. and today just topped it off. I WAKE UP AND MY CAR'S GONE! Just when we left our other place because Gerry's car was stolen 2 weeks after we moved and to get away from the bad memories of cancer and chemo.... I GET MY CAR STOLEN HERE! WTF! what am I going to do now? For some reason yesterday, I was thinking I wanted to move my car from the spot I was in. But I didn't. Late last night... I heard some loud noise out side... I looked outside and it was just a bunch of black kids in the parking lot. 2am I thought I heard a knock at the door, but I thought.. I'm just hearing things... who'd be knocking at this time of night -and went back to sleep. This morning, like I do every morning, I went to the window to open the blinds and looked out into the parking lot. WHERE'S MY CAR?! I ran outside to the spot where i parked... no glass. I walked around the whole lot -thinking... did I park somewhere else? I even ran to the back of the building where I sometimes parked. IT'S GONE! WHY...WHY WHY!?? of course, I don't have full coverage on my car. I don't have money! I just filled up the gas too! This is deja vous all over again. 2 yrs ago, in another apartment complex... someone stole my car out of the parking lot. During the day. IT WAS ON A FRIDAY TOO! They found that car 4 days later abandoned in another city (Richmond). Bunch of kids took it for a joy ride until it was out of gas (I had just put a full tank of gas in that car too). The only thing they took from that car was my portable cd player and the bobble head dog. Everything else (except a bump on the fender) was untouched. I sold that car the next month. It felt used and abused. I didn't want it any more. I know who ever stoled this car is going to strip it. =( I had some nice rims on it... good stereo system, expensive amp.... *sigh* nothing I can do now.
*hang on.. police is here*
*sigh* all that can be done now is wait... police wrote up their report. Hopefully the car is found soon. How am I going to get around now? I guess it's a good thing its Friday... but it's Easter weekend. I don't think I'll be going anywhere now. I was planning on going to Stockton to visit my brother and his family.

what's next... ?

posted by Linda V @ 10:15 AM